I've been thinking alot this past few weeks, and i've come to realise that every problem or obsticle in life we go through, strengthens us. It also matures us in one way or another, whether the effect is significant or even faint. We all grow. I guess it's stuff like this which really helps us to know what we should do, what must be done. Nothing can be avoided, it must be solved sooner or later. Running away puts your heart at ease, but it still isn't a long term solution is it?
I've been thinking back the past year, how fast it seemed to have just past by like that in a blink of an eye. I thought of what i did, even smiled to myself at my stupidity on how i reacted to stuff. I guess i can claim that everyone changed without anyone flaming back at me or something after given some thought. We didn't change a little, coming to think of it, we changed a heck lot. I remember at the begginning of the year, i wasn't scared of offending anyone with what i said, or even what i did. I used vulgarities like no man's buisness. Only towards the second part of the year, did i think twice on what i said. Even based on my judgment, it sometimes hurts those who received what i gave. Everyone was easily insulted and quick to anger, especially myself, or so thats what i feel.
Well if theres one thing which will never change, i guess it would be change it very self. As we mature, we aren't as petty over things like we used to be, like if i spilled something, no one would scream and make a big fuss over it. But then again, we are petty with the smallest of things sometimes. That really made me wonder whether we really matured or grew even more inmatured somehow. We should really take a break from whatever we're doing sometimes, be it play computer games, talking online, watching television, and reflect on our lives. See how much we have changed, how much we have matured. Clear our minds and well..grow up. I mean, look at the papers, look at the headlines. It isn't about who got the highest frags for CounterStrike. It isn't about when the next chapter of Naruto is out next. It's about what reality is. It's about life and deaths. About what makes a difference in this world. What is real, and what is not. It may seem hard to differentiate at first, but if we think and mature, it isn't really that hard.
No one is perfect. No one can be perfect. That's why we are to try to be as Christ-like as we can. To know right from wrong. I've also been reflecting and thinking on what i should be doing. I shouldn't be playing as much during the holidays. Yeah..it's a break from school. But that doesn't mean that it should be all play and no work. It doesn't make Jack a dull boy, it makes him RETARDARD. Also when the consequences come, which is worse? To regret what you have done. OR. To regret what you did not do.
It's all up to us in this world. No one can control us. Teachers, parents, elders, they are there to guide us. To teach us. What we do, is up to us. It's so easy to word down all this, but hard to action on it.
